Dinner.

Forgot to mention in my earlier posts, I'm going to dinner with Katie!! Olive Garden...for wine!!

Disappointment.

A few weeks ago I fell in love with this little terrier named Dottie. I could not get Dottie out of my mind. She was still available. What will it hurt to have mom and Charlie meet her? Maybe she is the one we're looking for?

So they all meet, everyone is good. Linda lets us bring Dottie home for a trial run. She begins coming out of her shell, but I still cant decide. It should have been an easy decision.

When I started thinking about it deeply, I realized that what was happening was I was trying to reason with my heart and brain. My heart had fallen in love, but my brain was telling me we can not afford another dog. We just cant. Once I realized that, the decision was much easier. Kim totally understood. Dottie was so happy when I brought her back, she really was.

I only want the very best for Dottie. I want her to find a home that she deserves. One that will love her forever, and will bring out the greatest potential in her. If Dottie just so happens to become available again next year, I would definetly snatch her up.

I love you Dottie, I always will. You be a good girl.

Sporatic.

My life is so unbelievably boring. While I do tend to focus on the blah areas of my life, I tend to forget about the good things.

The good things I have are an amazing family. I tend to take them forgranted. Grandma passed away this past weekend. Yesterday was the funeral. It was wonderful to see my cousins that I havent seen in forever, it was nice to see Steph. What it was not, was not nice to see my sister Bert. I dont know why but she is just so mean, why cant she just not say anything if she doesnt have anything nice to say? Why does she insist on degrading my (our) mother in front of other people, including her children? Why is she such a bitch?

I also feel a little guilty that I didnt even say hello or anything to Dads new wife. He should have greeted me with her, or something, I was not going to just go over there. Gawd.

It was nice to get mom & Arlette in the same room, actually in the same aisle, same table!! We sat together and then went out to lunch together. I really enjoyed that part. My two moms!!

A month and half later...

Since I havent really had anything going on in my life, I thought why write. My life is so incredibly boring that I wonder what would anyone else have any interest in reading about it. Then I realize, its not merely for someone to read, but more for me to write, to put my thoughts to paper (screen).

Last weekend was Labor Day. I was busier this weekend than like ever!! On Sat mom and I went to a dock dog event in Rockford, Pam came in with Brandy & Griz, Kim & Mike, Brittany & Lisa, Whit & Grant, Jill & Rick. We ended up leaving Charlie at home, and it ended up being almost 12 hours :( We felt really bad.

I dont know if I look more into things than necessary, or what, but I've noticed that since Lisa was here in July, that I never talk to her, any time I've talked to Brittany she is very quick with me, always has an excuse not to go to the park when I ask. But she was more than happy when I was able to watch Boom, while she went to see Lisa...yes, they can not seem to go more than a few weeks without seeing each other!! But, Brittany was even more quick with me last week, yes, no, maybe...then on Sat, me, mom, Kim, Pam & Jill & Rick and Mike were all sitting together, Lisa & Brittany were around and about, hardly seeing, or talking to them. See, I dont know if I'm over-reacting or what, but an outsider never would have known that we all knew eah other if it werent for the fact of all of us cheering for Lisa & Tractor.

I dont know if its because I am not a phone person, that I am out of the loop with them?!?! Is it because I dont initiate things? I KNOW I do with Brittany. But then I get an invite to Lisas birthday for next year?!?! I dont know.

Advice??

Allergies? Depression?

It was a quiet weekend, nothing going on; sometimes I totally feel sorry for myself.

I woke up yesterday with the worst allergies EVER!! And I figured now was a good time to find a new dr. So I found one right by my house. The dr was very nice. She does not think that its a sinus infection though, just an allergy attach. We're starting a new regimine, zyrtex & flonase & sudafed. Ohh, I hope it works!! I came home yesterday and just passed out for more than 2 hours.

Aw, well I hope my allergies get better :)

July 9, 2008

How the hell did it get this far in the year??? Seriously, its closer to Christmas than it is to the Jan 1, 2008!! WTF??

Well the 4th went ok. I still feel left out of things with Britt & Lisa. Not that I want to be involved in everything, but geez. They were partners everytime we played any game, I wouldnt have minded being Lisa or Britts partner playing beer pong?!? I dont think I took any pics with Brit, every pic of either of them includes the other...they were inseperable, which is why I ended up going to sleep early, I just couldnt handle it anymore. I dont know, I guess I'm just jealous.

But otherwise I really had a wonderful weekend, spent alot of time home with mom and Chuck! Got alot of cleaning done.

I'm also going back to daycare this weekend! It feels like its been forever since the last time! I hope I havent forgotten everything! Oh, I could really use the $75 though!! Still being garnished $150/wk, which brings my total to $600 (after today) and have not received any word what to do with it!

Bleeeecchhhhh :(

???

Confusion. Complication. Consideration.

About sums it up.